verbarrhea

I am so overwhelmed by such double standards. You speak, I listen. You complain, I try to console. Things you ramble on about often mean nothing to me and it is a waste of my precious little time to nod & smile as you go on for days about how you are the victim.

But I do, because I feel it would be unkind of me to not. That I would be rude or hurting feelings if I did not participate in the occasional banter.

And yet when I speak, regardless of it being a reply to things you say or a whole new topic, you act as if you are too important to waste your time on me. That any opinion I have is invalid simply because I am not you. You dismiss things I know for fact to be true, simply because you were not taught that. But if we each studied completely different things, and I would consider information you have that I was not taught as likely to be correct, since that was your life goal to study it, then why on earth would you just assume I'm an idiot about anything I spent good money to learn and what I now earn good money to use daily in my life?

Why is it ok for you to treat me so much less than you expect to be treated? Ever consider this is why your life is so unhappy and why your eyes turn green with even one glance at my happy little family photo? Why you seem so unsure and so much you do is simply a reaction to your own self esteem issues? I am tired of this game. This game I play with so very many, and each in their own way.

If you tell me you're so glad I'm in your life and tell me how wise I am when you are at your lowest and need me most, how can you then come back later and tell me how naive I am simply because you have no use of me in that moment.

What ever happened to being kind to each other and treating others the way you'd want to be treated? To not doing something or saying something to another that you yourself would find hurtful or unkind or disrespectful?

Simply because we are told we are unique, that we are each beautiful and deserving of everything we have potential for, that we need to "be ourselves" and be true to our inner voices, that does not give you the right to behave however you'd like. That does not mean that you can use someone else and then dismiss them like a servant.

It means be a servant to all and in that serving you will find your true self, your power, your happiness and earn respect from those around you. It means taking care of those who cannot take care of themselves, so that you will be taken care of in your own moment of inability or falling. It means simply be kind, for those around you are fighting battles in their own lives or own souls that you have no idea they are fighting, so who are you to judge shoes you yourself have never even tried on, let alone worn around for a bit.

It means dealing with the fact that you are not the single most important thing in your own life. Even our ancestors thought the sun revolved around the earth. Perhaps we are still all learning that life lesson, just in a newer form. Perhaps, we never will.