today.

today, I am dying inside.
yet today, I am strong like my grandmothers and their mothers.

today, I am desperately afraid.
yet today, I am calm like a ripple-less pond.

today, I am drowning in my sadness.
yet today, I will make my stand.

today, I don't believe anything will ever change.
yet today, I will try again anyways.

today, I feel helpless and spinning out of control.
yet today, I will close my eyes and take a breath.

today, I will let the full moon fill me,
the eclipse change me,
the earth hold me down,
and the sun lift me up.

today, I will be my name.

today, I will wait.

because tomorrow, I think I just might
be ok.



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